Galbaby, what other books? Are they in line with DR? I'm actually looking for some books you know like DR. I'm reading co-dependent no more but I'm finding it hard to relate to. DR is great because IMO it makes me feel strong and prepared if this sitch work out or not.
Also, that leap of faith you mentioned, after connection with you H, was there any set back? Did you feel any regret or felt like it negated some of your positives? Sorry for all the q's, just had these thoughts and fears if it does happen to ML to W.
Don't get me wrong I have no expectation that this will happen anytime soon but maybe someday. I'm actually thinking of more connection like asking her for a dinner to see what she'd say. But that's when the timing is right.
A little journal, the past two days was the same except this morning it was one of those moments that I felt the connection and we kissed. It was longer than the last time around but she did end it. Seem like she'd remember something and then bam it's over. Anyway, this evening we'd had good Convo about her day and whatnot. It's good day overall.
I'm also better not being clingy with her sleeping on the same bed. Two days ago I asked her to wear her wedding ring and she just gave me this look! Ugh ok I mentioned it once and will not mention it again she's not ready for that--proceeding with caution.
I got to give her props though, she's really trying to work on this M. I mean it must be really tough to her to be affectionate with me since her feelings died, but I think she's trying to get them back.
With all these positives, I still see a long road ahead. Just got to move forward and continue to better myself.
Yes I believe the DR work...patience patience patience.
Newman
me40; W43 M18; T~20 D18; S13 & S3 bomb 5/9/11 EA busted 4/30/12; 9/4/12; 4/29/13; 6/10/13 same OM
Separated 4/1/14
"Even a flicker of light will shine through darkness-12/25/2012"....better days ahead.
