Sooooo. Couple of good detached days. No passive aggressive talks from me. No game playing. Cheerful ALL THE TIME, a few really good conversations and interactions with wife... On my end.
Her, well still going where she pleases, when she pleases, still cake eating, spending money, staying out till 2 am or 4 am! I have continued to act "as-if". I go to work, come home early and find things to do with the kids, stay out of her way. Give her space. Let her do her thing.
Tonight it ALL WENT TO SH!T. Somewhere the R conversation came up mutually. I simply listened, until I could not anymore. There is only so much "you are the complete blame" one man can take. Still calm, I tried to accept my portion and explain I am not perfect, but I'm pretty god damn good. She of course accepted nothing. She pretty much said none of this was her fault.
I had had enough of being called a "f'n a$$hole" and I got the paperwork for divorce and told her to sign it. I was calm through the whole thing. She refused to sign. I asked what she wanted and of course she wanted me to move out, alimony, child support, EVERYTHING. I explained the only thing I wanted was joint (50/50) physical custody of the kids and she pretty much told me that I didn't rate 50/50. I asked her what made her think she rated full custody. After being pretty much called everything in the book, I left. I went downstairs and she soon followed. That's when she said " I f'n hate you and hope you f'n die in a fiery crash"!
PAPERWORK AND LAWYER TOMORROW.
I truly appreciate everyone help. But it's irreversible now!
