Feeling so low still. May just be one of those days.
The enormity of what H has done is sinking in. What he did to our marriage, our kids, our life... There's the possibility he has avoided our children for nine months to please HER.
This damage can never be undone, reconciliation or not, this chit leaves permanent scarring on me and the kids. Two girls who have now been abandoned and have had to live with the knowledge that Dad is out "there" partying and living with OW.
I worked so hard to be a good mom and now this? All these years and it's all down the toilet in the span of less than a year?
And, the worst part is... I didn't even have an effin choice in this major life event. This event which will color who I am for the rest of my life and I HAD NO SAY!
And, when I spoke, I was, literally, ignored. Treated like a stranger, an annoying, nagging stranger.
I think some pain is rising to the surface. I need to figure out how to let this out.
Heather
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
