Divorced Thrd #6/Long Road Ahead

[Mrs D]

Well - nothing is new. Not a thing. Actually, I totally let him go completely two Fridays ago? I love him enough to let him try to find happiness - whether it be with her, or maybe eventually with me - no one knows except the big guy upstairs. Im just tired of thinking and worrying and not living my life to my full extent. I even went on a date that Saturday. Course X found out about it, and he asked a million questions. My answer was that I needed to start living. He knows down inside he still has my heart. But. As much as I want us, and I want our family - I cant continue to beat myself up. You know? I havent given up. Im just letting go...

Im lurking, not really posting. Hope all is well with you all.