Oh honey, I am so sorry.......I know the pain you are feeling.......
The first thign you need to do is acknowledge the pain and let yourself feel it. Cry, scream, throw things...etc...
Once that is out of your system...DO NOT, I repest DO NOT blame yourself......keep telling yourself "this is not about me"......
This is what got me through receiving the D papers. At first I went back and analyzed every conversation I had had with H and tried to figure out what had pushed him to file. There really is no senee in doing that to yourself, Wonder.
This is about him and you can only control yourself. He has to find his way out of the tunnel on his own. In the meantime, keep DBing, but let him go and move on with your life! It will help you detach and it will make you so much happier.
I hope you can still try to enjoy the rest of your birthday celebration this weekend. Hang in there sweetie! (((((WONDER))))) I promise things will get better!
Happiness is like a butterfly: the more you chase it, the more it will elude you, but if you turn your attention to other things, it will come and sit softly on your shoulder.... (thoreau)
