Kicking a$$ and taking names!

[reachingHigher]

Snodderly,

I just wanted to say thank you so much for all your posts here on this forum. You must feel like a broken record sometimes having to repeat the same things over and over again in a different way. You do a marvelous job at rephrasing and repeating in a kind and understanding way.

I am starting to "get it" in a lot of ways. Starting to understand my H's unfulfilled needs from childhood/young adulthood. Starting to not react so strongly to his hot and cold spells towards me.

Yesterday, as H embarked on his trip, he happily texted his checkins along the legs of his trip, as you would a spouse. This went on until mid afternoon, when I was pretty sure he started drinking alcohol at the airport, from what he said. Then, I heard nothing more.

I'm sure since he wants to be D, he doesn't want to have to "check in" with a spouse when he gets to his destination. I'm okay with it. I know I'll hear from him soon, when he is sober. Lol! Sorta.

Just really wanted a heartfelt thanks to go out to everyone here. I feel like I've grown so much in my thinking and ways of living since I moved over here to the "MLC" section. I really take to heart advices on all the threads.

I feel like my sitch is getting harder. Like sometimes I feel physically ill when thinking about getting D. But the parts of my day when I feel strong, and sometimes almost energetic (!) are becoming greater.

Thanks, thanks, thanks again!!!