I would like to say that I understand your terror about being so vulnerable financially and emotionally. I have felt it myself. I haven't had a job outside the home in almost 17 years.
I am a registered nurse, but not having practiced in so long, I would have to take a refresher course and then hope that there would be a job in my area.
Pay rates are lower than average in my state, as opposed to the state I left 20 years ago to marry this man, so I might have to move to get a job.
Just imagining having to put the mental energy into re-learning those skills while raising my children and healing from this trauma scares the heck out of me.
Anyway, I just wanted to let you know you are not alone.
I value the support I have received here since I arrived. I hope you stay.
Ammc,
I'm still here - just being a little more circumspect about what I write.
I definitely hear you about your job/financial sitch. And your children are little too; I really feel for you.
Some days just the act of breathing can consume all available energy and concentration.
But its got to get better, or at least more manageable, with the passage of time. I know that for me some days are better than others.
Perhaps, like me, its hard for you to gain traction and get out of the mire-of-pain because all you can see are roadblocks.
I haven't read your posts/sitch yet but will do so when I get some free (unobserved) time.
Thank you for reaching out, and God bless.
Me 46 H 56 M 22 yrs S22, D20, Twin Ss18
You teach people how to treat you by what you allow. What you stop. And what you reinforce. ~~~~~~~ A lack of boundaries invites a lack of respect.
