I agree. I think you explained it well, Lee. And when I look back on how long it took me to get there, I cringe! Though I never stopped having my own life or moving it forward, the allowing them to sort it out and concentrate on themselves without having to worry about you and know that you are in such pain while they examine their life part took a while to "get".
I feel like I have my very own cheering squad here. Thanks so much.
Yesterday was my b-day. Lots of people mistakenly think my b-day is the day after it actually is... don't ask me why, but it is a longstanding trend and even my H has done it a few times. However, yesterday, lots of people wished me birthday wishes on my real day... in fact, most people I know, except for H. I didn't expect anything from him, and though I had a fun day and will be celebrating a little more today and on Saturday as well, it still hurt not to hear from him.
Last year on this day, he asked to see me, pledged his love for me and told me how sorry he was for all of what we'd been through, talked about building a future with me, what kind of R we wanted to make, traveling with me, talked about his own creative work ideas, etc. It was a wonderful marathon conversation full of hope and love.
I'm not down, actually in a very good mood today, though I fell asleep feeling a little sad last night.
I will see H at the bank appt. this afternoon. Actually, I will need to call him because he never confirmed the time with me. Way inside that cave, he is this week.
