You sound like you really rely on someone to give you love and affection and can't stand on your own independence.
I can see where you would get that from my post, but to clarify. I have spent the majority of my relationship with my emotions in reserve. Before this relationship I was harshly independent,and it took me years to open up to my W. I have been expending a lot of emotional energy lately, maybe more than I have expended on any other emotional cause in my life. So I am tired. Maybe ready to give up the emotional fight. But I am worried about where that will put me. Like putting a genie back in the bottle. Will I lose my ability to feel again?
