But, here's the thing. I don't think there was ANYTHING I coulda done or did to avoid this... Anymore than me being responsible for my 18-yr-old daughter's antics. She blames me too. Do I accept that? No way! I've been a good mom. I think one of the worst things we can do in this situation is blame ourselves. Not to say we don't learn and grow and become better people... but blame myself? Notta chance- (at least not today).

I was a good wife. We actually had a good marriage in many respects. We had fun as a family. We had problems like any family. That's what makes this so sad. He fell into this dark hole and we fell apart--at least for now. But, there was nothing I could do except maybe not take the risk and marry him. I knew he was a dangerous mission when I took it.

"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man

“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson