Not sure where I belong...STBX has regrets.

[Shelby]

I honestly don't know. I am just so confused right now. Although I always knew he would regret leaving one day, after 2 years I never thought I would hear him say it.

I question myself this past week a lot. Do I want the person he became the last years of our marriage ? Heck no. But if he has regret and remorse and and is willing to work on himself and us, then maybe.

Then I question myself because did I let myself get hopeful just because I'm ready to be with someone again, have a companion. I haven't dated at all in the past 2 years. I've spent the time working on myself. Ive lost weight. Started running and doing 5k and 10k's. I've made new friends.

I think I am a stronger person now, I guess he still has some kind of effect on me though if I aloud myself to be thrown for a loop after he said he has regrets and wants to work on us. I should have known better, and take it with a grain of salt.