She stopped by for a short while today. I told her that despite our situation I still cared for her and whe had a son together so if she needed to talk I would listen. Basically to not be afraid about me getting angry or upset. She got quite and kind of sad for a brief moment and told me she didn't really have anything to say.
Allright, so we had our pre-meeting talk which went good. As far as child support goes she wants me to pay no more than needed, even though I offered to pay more. She is totally open to letting me stop by to see our son and have time with him outside our initial agreement. All this I guess shows goodwill from her side, but also makes me question why that is. Maybe guilt? Or maybe she just cares for our son and my R with him.
In our previous on-off(lasted a couple weeks), years ago, she still seeked sporadic physical R with me. Now, at least lately, she is like a friend seeking nothing physical. Only thing I notice is that on occasion she kinda "checks me out. To be fair I keep my distance which may help build this wall between us?
How am I doing? Well except for being demolished the two first days I'm quite good. Of course I go through the motions of anger, sadness, hopelessnes, happiness and so forth. The thing I find interesting or maybe even unnerving is the fact that I'm coping this (relatively) good. I was expecting weeks of total depression, despair and tears. Since day two I've been sad, but haven't really shed a tear. We have a good tone and don't argue. I don't know wether to doubt my true feelings for her or consider the possibility that I'm in some sort of denial. Maybe I'm currently just in a place right now where it feels easier to not fight and kinda releaving?
I'm also a bit baffled at why she removed the jewelery I gave her, but is still as in a R with me on facebook. On the day of the breakup she said she would not change to single, but she would clear the R info.
Any seasoned people want to share their opinion or experience?
Together for 8,5 years. S2 Interest in OM. She left 29.09.12 b/c we couldn't work things out. No signs of OM, not digging. Living in seperate homes, sharing custody.
