I went to my IC yesterday-spent a good deal of time filling her in on events of the past 3 wks, but told her up front I was looking for more "coaching."
She listened & said that it seems as though my H is at least being honest w me on all counts at this point--brutally honest at times. she suggested praising him wherever appropriate for that.
H was in total depression/shut-off mode last night for several hours...listening to "HOME" by Phillip Phillips over and over--the song speaks to me...Im just not sure who he envisions the song with--at first I thought it must be me, but now I think it is prob OW. Only mind-reading.
Then I was depressed and laid on my bed for an hour straight just thinking and wondering about where we are...(not sure, really). Kids are on automatic pilot as we both are not focused on them...and I know I need to be more.
Worried about kids and how they'll take the conversation about dad moving out.
Worried about interactions between H and me after move out.
Worried about his weakness in not comm w OW.
H gives me a hug before leaving for work this morning and says "we need to give each other hugs coming and going." CONFUSION!!! Love the idea of it, but not sure WHY he said this and IF he really will follow through.
Sorry...running on fumes and just getting down my stream of conscience. NEED ADVICE!
M- 18 T-21 S-14,11 & 10 BD 6-18-2012 (OW-EA) H moved out 11-3-2012 10-5-13 Me- I want a divorce. I want to move on w my life. 11-25-13 Jointly filed.
