Wife lost in the MLC-We are now separated

[sam4nh]

So I continue to screw the process up. Today, my W insisted on pushing a button about seeing my phone to "check the settings". She knew this was pushing my buttons, but kept doing it. I finally got upset and said that we've all seen her text messages to the person she is "in love" with..Needless to say this did not go over very well.

We then went on to discuss our relationship....Yeah I know it was so wrong, but I did it anyway. She's admitted that this OP is her "Soul Mate/connection for life". She wanted to discuss the contract, but then backed off with this week should be for my mom and our family. I said some sarcastic things like, I did not understand why she was hanging on me and saying she loved me because it was very confusing. She went on to say, "Don't you see that I'm supporting you"? She also kept saying she was working on herself and not talking to anyone...I don't believe this what so ever. I said I had made a commitment to her and I was not ready to break that commitment. I know another wrong statement. Oh and if we are going down the "what not to do" hill...Why not talk about separation/legal separation and divorce....WOW how much can I screw up in one day???

Being here with her during my moms funeral is just been very tough. I want this all to be over and move on....But I'm not sure I'm ready...