After my last post, I read JJs thread on teething and said, yup, there it is in full living color. I am hypersensitive right now to things that normally wouldn't bother me. And what bothers me most is that I'm not feeling like my H is really trying to build trust with me.
I have taken a few days for myself. Haven't talked to H except to tell him I hoped he was having a good end to his week. He didn't show any interest in seeing me this weekend though he did leave a msg. asking when he could get the insurance card from me then didn't call me back.
My therapist had said to me that putting our marriage back together would be an emotional process, but also a simple one based almost entirely on two things we have control over:
1. the attitude with which we approach it-- as how we're thinking will impact how we're feeling and our actions
2. asking before we do or say anything-- will this bring us closer together or farther apart-- and choosing only those things that bring us together.
I'm feeling frustrated I guess because my low expectation is that my H will come into this with a positive attitude (reasonably understanding this is tough with depression) and that he will choose to ask himself if what he is doing is helping to bring us closer or not. That's really all I want from him at this point... and I have realized that I really don't want to accept anything less than that because that creates anxiety in me that doesn't need to be there.
