Thanks Sue. I do feel pretty strong. I have been in the non-functioning trap... wait until I feel better. right after initial bomb, with a little 24-hr trip back after I discovered him in a lie (about a year ago). It is just awful. Definitely not going back there!
Actually, since all this has been going on so long, I've become better at "my" life... setting and meeting my own goals and have a lot of people who support me in those things. You're SO right about having postive things to be grateful for-- I have so many of those and I'm really fortunate to be able to say that.
I think postinghere has helped me see something: I am also reaching a point where I need to make some changes-- mostly I can't afford to live in my house alone anymore; doing this has put me into debt-- I think some of my restlessness is about wanting to know if he's really in this with me as I get ready to deal with the decisions I might have to make.
There's a lot I'd like to talk about with H right now but I don't want to force a discussion either. He knows what the situation is. And right now, I'm sick, so it will have to wait... but I think I just figured something out here.
