My apologies in advance if I'm beginning to sound like a broken record, especially on Mondays. And at least at this point, I'm strapped in to this roller coaster ride and I can see the loops coming up now!
So all that said, I'm having an awfully rough morning... one of those "Post GAL" kind of days.
The emptiness of my house really got to me again this morning. The absence of W from my life is more pronounced today than I'm comfortable with.
I miss the hell out of her. And while I feel I have been and continue to make progress on myself, it stings that I can't seem to make progress on my sitch.
This "darkness" thing is especially tough today, when I have a damn good reason to be able to reach out to W (as she filed for a tax extension, which is now due, and she almost certainly needs help and info from me).
But I won't be reaching out to her. Even if my heart screams that I need to DO SOMETHING.
I guess I'm just having a down day, which is to be expected once in a while. But damn do I want to hear from W today...
I think what I need more than anything else is for the work day to be over so I can go home and just get in a good old fashioned cry.
