Quote: He may have been very depressed and using OW to hide from his pain for awhile. Now that is over and he may still be depressed and now having to feel like crap for what he has done too.
Yes, he has been depressed and is depressed still. We've discussed that actually. He's come home before-- quickly and just like that and was very depressed then and confided that he'd felt that way a long time.
I'm sure there is also a bit of grieving involved here. He cares for this person, no matter what I think of her.
And yeah, he really does feel like crap. He's told me this a fair amount. He's said several times that he wonders why I want anything to do with him.
I guess this is the part I am finding hard... he's talked to me a lot about this stuff before... we've had some deep conversations. Now he's not really talking about it, or anything else. It is different. Maybe that's significant?
While he's dealing with this, I'm restless. So I'm headlong into all my projects... and wondering how on earth not spending time or energy on one another when we've said that is what we want is going to bring us closer.
