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[Snookee]

So here's an update:
3 weeks ago we had a big blowout and I told the OW that H and I had been intimate a number of times since he moved out. She said I could have him; he said he'd make my life miserable. Next day they make up I guess and he's totally was not talking to me. I guess I stirred up some serious things and it was wrong of me. Anyway since then I spoke with a DB coach and we decided that its in my best interest to do a 180 and that he must feel something if he was intimate with me. I saw him Saturday at grandson's soccer game and I said hello but basically detached myself and when it was over I said good bye and left. Today I texted him to ask if he was at work in the a.m. so that I could drop off his mail (he works close to where I work) and he wasn't there but conversation via texting was sarcastic in my opinion. He claimed that I am smartand that I should find someone as smart as I am. I said don't be sarcastic and he said he wasn't but I don't believe it. Then I said that maybe I did find someone but he shouldn't tell me what to do....I haven't. Anyway he says that's great. Thing is I don't want him to think that its great if I meet someone. It seems that he just wants me to though. I'm just so hurt still; its almost 6 months that he dropped the bomb and I haven't had a tear-free day since. I even dreamt of him and woke up with those lonely feelings again. Its very hard to put up a front, but now I'm wondering if it would even matter to him. Sounds like he doesn't want to look back. The financial situation is great where he is now. IDK what's next.