Saturday evening we went to a Ws cousin party. Nothing to note of any change other than how I continue my 180s interacting with other people. I also wasn't dependent on W on anything like food, drinks etc...I figure I'll conduct myself as if she was not in the same place. In other words I'm trying to remain detach and breaking the co-dependency with her.
Sunday, it was exact sitch as last Sunday without the kiss. But today i felt we built more, we watched two movies and the second one was comedy, and we had our laughs. during commercial breaks we talked about her work. i didnt try to kiss her because, I'm backing off from physical contact. I'm feeling too clingy to her. She has not said anything but I could tell she's getting annoyed. I did catch myself wanting to touch her often. I'm backing off unless a sitch create a vibe. I also would like if she would initiate some contact.
Looks like we are also back to sleeping together. I'm not budging out and she's not budging out the MBR. I thought about going back to our sleeping arrangements but nah, I just have to adjust and not get clingy with her in bed. I slept the whole month by myself so I can hang.
So the weekend was really positive again. I want to keep it up and build more on this.
Newman
me40; W43 M18; T~20 D18; S13 & S3 bomb 5/9/11 EA busted 4/30/12; 9/4/12; 4/29/13; 6/10/13 same OM
Separated 4/1/14
"Even a flicker of light will shine through darkness-12/25/2012"....better days ahead.
