Time for an Introduction...and Thanks

[figure-it-out]

Journaling...
Knocked down a little bit today. Feeling it more than I should probably so I'm hoping getting it down on (cyber) paper will help get it out of my system.
H picked up S yesterday and we had a relatively good conversation. There are some things going on with my SIL and her family that we got caught up on.
Went to a cooking class with SIL today. When I got home S was already here. I asked him how his night was, how grandma was (that's where he thinks H is living) and he informed me that they didn't stay at grandmas last night. He said H had to walk a "friends" dog so they stayed at the "friends" house since "friend" was out of town.
I knew instantly where he stayed. I asked S where he slept and he said on an air mattress with H. He said they just played XBox all night and that H brought him home around 1:00.
I don't know why this is affecting me the way it is. I don't know if I assumed since it had bee a couple of weeks since H and I talked about him taking S to his "place" and it hadn't happened I figured he had changed his mind or if H taking S there makes it more "real".
I'm just feeling really upset about it. I'm glad on one hand she wasn't there but if it's coming then anyway it's almost like ripping the band aid off little by little. I have questions but I don't even want to bring it up to H. Is he planning on taking S there for X amount of time while she's not there and then all of the sudden one weekend she will be there? Does he think S will not notice his stuff there and put 2 and 2 together. It just feels like this step is cementing his decision but I know logically his decision was cemented anyway.
I'm disappointed that H didn't tell me he was doing this. H has never officially told me where exactly he lives and knows that as part of the settlement we're working on he legally has to tell me. I do know the address BTW but H does not know I know.
I would love to send H a text right now and remind him of this fact but don't want to sound just bitter and angry. I am bitter and angry.
I am just so sad again for S and D (and me). H's selfishness and denial of how this is affecting all of us is really getting to me with this.
Time for a good cry in the shower I guess. Hopefully that and this post will help get it out of my system a bit.