Thank you eyesopen,

I agree that his happiness has to "happen" in order for us to have a chance. And, I am ready for him to move out in some ways. I do have to hold onto the hope wherever I find it, as it feels like all I have left.

You are right about the hurt...I never knew I could hurt this much.

My husband came into our bedrm while I was getting ready for the day to ask me this: "How disappointed are you in me?"

I wasn't sure how to answer that question but I said something like, "I do feel disappointment, but that's hard to gauge, bc I have learned through this journey that I love you husband unconditionally"...despite the fact he says he is not in love with me. I also said, "That bc of that love is the most prevailing emotion I feel and despite the fact that yes I am angry and sad and upset and disappointed, I think that my feelings of love trump everything else."

Now, I'm SURE that's not DBing, but I was HONEST and REAL and IT FELT GOOD TO SAY. I said, "I'm not sure I answered your question." HE said I answered it good enough and he left the room, seemingly satisfied with my response.

Now I know I'm not suppose to MIND-READ, but WHY do you think he asked me that in the first place? And, how SHOULD I have responded?

M- 18 T-21
S-14,11 & 10
BD 6-18-2012 (OW-EA)
H moved out 11-3-2012
10-5-13 Me- I want a divorce. I want to move on w my life.
11-25-13 Jointly filed.