I want to go camping.

[labug]

Here's a rough edge I'm trying to smooth. I work on furniture as a hobby so believe me, I've sanded many rough edges and I love when I get to the #220 paper. So smooth.

H is going to fix an electrical problem here at the house and he said he would look at it this weekend or next. I told him that was fine as it's been a problem for a while and another couple of days or weeks wouldn't matter. This is a big 180 for me as in the past I wanted things done and I wanted them done NOW!

I'm working on just being with this uncertainty, it's a little one but we learn from all of it, don't we?

Of course I expected him to be here yesterday! Not reality based, but you know that back of the mind thought and then the expectations/judgments that root in a mind left free to roam. I'm fighting the urge to send an email "so, can you just tell me when you're going to fix this?" It's not a huge urge but I recognize it's there and am vigilant about what's going on in my head, my motives, my expectations.

Then I read this:
The mind can be just as active and difficult to control as a puppy, yet we've never trained it to listen to us. Why haven't we done this? Our mind chases random thoughts, jumps to conclusions, and has a hard time staying focused. We have so little control of it, in fact, that sometimes we can't even turn it off at the end of the day. If it were a puppy, we would be very upset.

Obviously my puppy-mind needs more training.