Need HOPE part III

[PERSEVERANCE]

I'm officially finished. Anyone capable of intentionally hurting me like my x doesn't deserve my love. She has actually disgusted me & our children beyond measurement. I've lost respect for her.... It isn't possible to truly love someone that you don't respect. I sold my ring, took down most of the photos, threw away cards and letters. all done- its a relief... now i'll move on. honestly, i wouldn't take her back if she begged. I have seen the light-Perhaps she was more of an unhealthy addiction the last couple of years. The Boys told me that they don't want her to come home... That I'm a better Mom & Dad -- it's nice to be validated, but sad that it is coming from the children. She is mentally ill & can't see it.... Family , friends & neighbors... We all see it. She is a monster now - a shell of the woman I married 17 yrs ago. Reduced to a selfish shallow gutter whore.
So- my job now is to try to get the divorce decree amended... The kids are will tell a judge, lawyers the same thing.... They want to remain in our home with me... She can visit & I'll offer her a buy-out of the equity.
There are millions of women who would appreciate me. Additionally- I've learned from past / I won't repeat the same mistakes with communication .