On another front last night we went to dinner w my parents. We told them of the "new" news--no contact w/ HER outside of work AND about H seeing a counselor (finally). They were very happy to hear good news & I think it made him feel better to have these things to tell them.

My parents live across the country so I only see them once or twice a year & we don't talk all that frequently. However, telling them about our M problems this weekend made me feel so supported and close to them. I cried when I hugged them good-bye.

I was a wreck all the way home in the car. When we got home my H held me in bed and "comforted" me so much. We even got flirtatious (as it made both of us feel better), but no ML. He actually reminder me that he could ML w me if he wanted (as I had said this to him when he asked not all that long ago). I told him "no"--that things had changed & I would not ML to him. HE was surprised and said, "maybe I'll take that as a challenge."
Nothing more happened other than cuddling and "safe touching."

I get so confused by his behavior and I don't know whether to shut him down when he comforts me (as this seems to make us BOTH feel better) OR if I should refuse his offers to make him feel better?

When he moves out in 3 weeks I feel the opportunities for us to be in these scenarios will be zero. It just feels weird knowing he doesn't LOVE ME but yet finds comfort in being close to me sometimes. Other times he pulls back and turns his back to me in bed or sleeps purposely on the couch to avoid going to bed w me. Confusing! What do I do, and why does he DO this?!


M- 18 T-21
S-14,11 & 10
BD 6-18-2012 (OW-EA)
H moved out 11-3-2012
10-5-13 Me- I want a divorce. I want to move on w my life.
11-25-13 Jointly filed.