best and worse thing to ever go through

[eyesopen]

I think I am starting to figure this out. Or at least I am becoming detached enough that my actions are real. Faked it long enough that I am becoming me again. I am definitely enjoying GAL. I may still put my foot in my mouth, but I am happy about living from a place of love and not anger.

I came across a forum that posed the question of wether or not people thought they had wasted the years they were married once they were divorced. I am happy to say that I don't believe it was a waste. Because of this I am learning how to listen and validate. Had this never happened I would still be on cruise control. Now I can put the pedal down on the rest of my life. Hopefully with my w. I do wish my children didn't have to go through this, and I don't think my w would want them to go through this. I understand and respect that she thinks this is what she has to do. Mr. Bond wrote something to me awhile ago about wanting to control her into loving me and coming back. I want her to come back under her own free will. I may not be the best DBer ever and I may not save my marriage, I will live a happy fulfilled life.