And it is fake. Obviously. You are doing it for the sole purpose of making her feel the same way that you do when she goes out. It's transparent.
Stop playing games.
You can't do anything until you decide what you want to do. You say that one minute you think that you can't go on like this and then the next you want to fix it. Decide man. Make a decision. Then make a plan on how to accomplish that.
Your #1 180 should be stopping the game playing with your W.
#2 should be to stop these passive aggressive conversations that the two of you have. Sounds like you are both guilty, but you need to take the lead to stop them.
Do some thinking about what unconditional love means to you.
Because right now? You seem to only want to love your W if she is doing things your way. That is conditional love.
You have a long way to go here to get your head around this DB thing. You are fortunate in that your W is still with you in your home. You do have a chance. But you are blowing it.
You need to reset and get this figured out quickly.
M 43 X 38 T 13 W moves out of home 11/2010 Roller coaster from hell 2/2011-5/2012 I request divorce 5/2012 W moves home 6/2012 Good time 7/2012 - 1/2015 I leave 3/2016 process of divorce
