The crack in my perfect life...

[Sweetbriar]

Today I made a huge mistake and started talking R with H when he texted about the kids. All this did was make me sad, and of course give him the chance to tell me that our marriage was over. He says that he has done soul searching and realizes that we can never make each other happy. So, of course, I want to tell him all the good that was in our marriage. I didn't, but I wanted to. My kids are having such a hard time with him being gone and it makes it easier for me to somewhat beg. He says he would like to revisit the idea of him coming back to stay in the guestroom in March when the baby is due...told him not a chance. He cannot just leave, stay gone, tell me our marriage is over and then want to come back and be a part of our house when the baby is born. No way....we have 2 other daughters who are suffering NOW...

I know he cannot be trusted. And he openly admits that he is unhappy and says he has always been unhappy his whole life. Now, I know that he hated his childhood, and was unhappy but honestly, our whole marriage has NOT been unhappy. I read somewhere that if you think you had a decent marriage and all your family and close friends thought you had a decent marriage, then chances are , you did have a decent marriage. Not that I need friends and family to tell me, but seriously, he is re writing our whole history together and that kills me.

His last text was "I love you and care about your, really!" and it hurts me to see that you are still struggling with this" Really, did he expect me to be over it??