Again thanks for the reply and the kind words. To be honest, I'm really lost. One minute I feel I can't go on like this, the next I feel good about what I'm doing. Im so confused on how to proceed. 180s are difficult because her biggest issue with me was that I was not affectionate enough, intamite or sexual. I had issues when she came back after she left. I search for answers to questions she didn't want to answer. Somewhere over the past two months she changed again and gave up. How can I do 180s when I can't touch her. Can't show affection. Etc!!!! To her, being detached is more of the same! At least when I mentioned the separation paperwork the other day, she was nicer to me the next day.
Update: so after W got home at 4 am, I was of course up. I went to the gym as I mentioned to her and went to the grocery store afterwards. I returned home about an hour ago and started unloading groceries. She was directing the children to clean the living room and started helping put away the groceries. While we were unloading and putting away, she mentioned that she was going to a "jewelry party" tonight and OBTW, would not be returning afterwards because she was going to the local amusement park tonight for the Halloween events. She didn't mention who she was going with, not that I really expected her to. She then made the comment "I'm not sure why I tell you where I'm going, but at least I tell you". She was of course referring to when I go out, I don't mention where I go. Stupidly I asked "do you want me to tell you?" she said No and I let it go and continued putting groceries away. She also said she just feels that she needs to tell me where she goes and I said "W, you don't have to tell me where you go" I WANTED to say that I really wouldn't and don't believe what she tells me about where she goes.
I had to walk away because I want to scream. She also keeps asking me to do some "honey dos" when I get a chance. I WANT TO F'N SCREAM!!!!!!! But I can't. Trying to maintain composure.
