I had one of those nights where I was wide awake for two hours and couldn't sleep. So I read your post. I don't have any sage replies. Just wanted you to know I read it. I'm so glad you can post here and be honest with these difficult heart issues.
My sitch is moving on in an incredibly painful way. Yours is standing still in an incredibly painful way.
I admire the R with you and your S19. That's a real treasure to have. My S19 is doing very well but our home foundation feels so slippery that I just want to hold everything together for them but allow myself the grief in the process. I'm looking for a better year in 2013.
I read your posts to other people too. You always have the solid advice and I love it you revisit the basics so often. I need to be reminded of them again and again.
Me54/H47 '08 H is "done" March '12 H moved out Brink of D, December '12 2014 totally reconciled! ...... "I firmly believe in the...absolute possibility of marriage renewal." Jim Conway