Couple days ago I was visiting my son at her place and she asked me before I left how I was doing. I said ok, considering. I wanted a family, but now the outcome is different. I'm focusing on myself and what I need to do. She said for her some things were harder and some easier. I asked if she was ready to sign seperation papers, and she said as ready as she could be after so many years. She didn't give a straight answer when I asked if she was ready to sign that we would never end up together again.
So, I drove home. Didn't really know what to think or believe. She texted me early the next morning(yesterday), just chit chat. I didn't answer and haven't talked to her since.
I was working late that day and was not in a good mood about my situation these days. Just wanted to go home and not do anything really. Instead I called some friends, had some beers and went for a small night out. Nothing big, but a nice distraction.
I still feel confused, but maybe now it's starting to sink in that I really need to go my own way and try not to overthink things. Just ride the wave out and see what happens.
Together for 8,5 years. S2 Interest in OM. She left 29.09.12 b/c we couldn't work things out. No signs of OM, not digging. Living in seperate homes, sharing custody.
