You are exactly right. I am nowhere close to consistent. I guess when I brought up the separation stuff, I was using it more as a PowerPlay to reinforce that I was movin on with my life. I just went to far! I brought the "not what I want" during the conversation because it's not. It's not what I want at all. In my mind I wasn't reinforcing anything, I was just reminder her it's been her decision all along. The I'm done part was my frustration comin out because of the current "room mate" sitch. I need to be more consistent. With everything.
As far as lunch yesterday with W and D4, it was actually really great. We actually talked a lot. No R or future anything from either of us. D4 and I laughed a lot. We were together about 2 hours or so for lunch. We said our goodbyes after lunch and I went back to work.
I left work a couple of hours later and got home. W and D4 had gone shopping and weren't home yet. Since the weather was nice, I took the motorcycle out for a couple of hours because theres not going to be to many warm days left. While I was out, I texted W to ask what time she needed me home(she had a sales party to go to). She told me and asked if I had thought about dinner for the kids. I said that I hadn't given it much thought. She recommended routissorie chicken from the local grocery store and a few things. I said it sounded great and I would get home a little early and would run out to pick it up. She kindly said not to worry about it, she would pick it up and to enjoy my ride. (wow! Didn't really expect that). I thanked her and agreed.
I got home and dinner was almost done. I jumped in to assist by making the mashed potatoes and cutting the chicken. I got everything prepared so W could get ready to leave. We all sat down and had dinner as a family which was nice. W left for her party and I watched a movie with the kids. I wake up extremely early every morning. The weekends role around and my internal clock still goes off. I got up at 4 (this morning) and came to get coffee ready. I looked outside and W still wasn't home yet. I made coffee and a few mins later W got home. I greeted her and asked how the party was. I was cheery in mood. She told me about it, how it started late anderson other stuff. I listened and went on making my coffee. She showed me pictures of the party and talked a little about some people she met. She said it ended late, and I misunderstood a little and asked "it just now ended (remember its 4 a.m.) and she said "no, it ended about 12:30" I said Oh and went on doing my thing. Then she said, I went to breakfast and left it at that. I dropped the conversation and she asked what I was doing up so early. I told her this is just what time I get up (she knows this) and I was going to the gym in a little as long as I can get my butt in gear. We talked for a minute longer and she said she was going to bed. I told her Good Night and she said good morning. I chuckled and said GM .
