Keep breathing...

[mamabird]

Oh my friends. I promised I would try to enjoy this campout but my curiosity got the better of me and I looked at H's phone when he left it unattended. Of course I wouldn't have looked if I hadn't felt suspicious, but it looks like there is an OW in play. One or maybe even 2. He has been deleting texts as well.


Also I have confirmed that he's been to a L who told him to sit tight.

I'm wondering what to do. I don't want to confront him about OW but its such a disgusting feeling know that this is going on. Also he hasn't told me which is fairly hypocritical given all our history.

As recently as yesterday he told OW I wish I could move on.

But also kind of bizarre, H did not set up the second tent so I assume he'll be sleeping in here w me and the boys.

I am sad and confused. Things have been getting better but I think on his heart he just wants to move along. We did ML 2 weeks ago, but maybe that has stopped because of OW. It was all I could do not to text her and tell her to leave my H alone, but I took a Xanax instead.

I know I should be detaching at this point but I feel like if I do that he'll really go to OW. Now he's at least letting me rub his back and we talk. I have never met this woman but have heard her name from time to time. She actually said she was impressed that he was doing the right thing for his kids. I'm so grossed out right now!!!

Please help - I want to be the better option but I don't know if I can. I'm heartbroken.