journaling,


There is something I don't get. Up until Thursday when i found out that H travelled to Dubai from his work project in the south without telling me or the kids, communication between us, specifically about the kids, had improved noticeably.


I am not saying that we were on our way to R....

I understand i should detach from this type of behavior however how can i keep going when he does something like this again? Its the same behavior that he exhibited in May when he was MIA for a few months without contacting us at all.

Its like one step forward and five steps backwards. Before he left three weeks ago to the south for work he said 'if you need me, yo know where i am'. he said that twice.

Then, he does this?

Can this man be so calculating and manipulative and selfish that he is doing this just so he can celebrate his birthday with OW? I guess what it comes down to is that he cannot face telling us he is in Dubai to celebrate as this implies that he is once again choosing her over his family. Just another reminder that he wants nothing to do with me.


TPS
Me: 44 H: 42
M14 T17
S10 D7
10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month
21/04/12 H is 'DONE'
04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010)
July '14 H ends affair
May '15 H moves back home