Going home

[needgrace]

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Last night I had a tough time when I was falling asleep. I just started crying and was really missing my W. This morning I felt anxious and sad.

So of course, today, I get an email from W. She is using a lawyer to finalize the D papers bc I guess the online program she was doing did not work for her. She said that she is not changing our agreement but needed help with the details. She wants to either work with the lawyer to draft the papers for my review or for us to meet together to discuss some issues that the lawyer brought up that we need to finalize.

She also wanted me to pay for half of the lawyer's fee as she says that using the lawyer will protect both of us. I don't think that is fair as this is HER divorce, I don't want it, why should I pay for it? What do you all think?

I may need to meet with her in person anyhow to finalize some tax issues. I am tempted to make one last effort to ask her if she is sure... but that would be pursuing wouldn't it?

i am tired of feeling so much pain... but this will pass, at least that is what i tell myself.