I know how much you are in pain right now dude. Heart like a mofo when you can NOW see the mistakes you made. Here is the thing, acknowledgement of your mistakes is the first step and YOU can fix them. To do so though you must really forgive YOURSELF (much easier said than done). IF you can’t learn to FORGIVE yourself, your approach to DBing may be impacted.
I am sorry you are here man.
JHL – I would suggest that right now you really stop talking to anyone other than your L about the D. Remember your L works for YOU…he can to some extent make this go as fast or as slow as you really want.
Time is on your side buddy and it ain’t over till the fat lady sings….matter of fact…it aint over till YOU say it is!
What else can you tell me about you, hobbies, family background, work, ……?
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
