I think my H is deserving of forgiveness. I want to forgive so badly, but that hurt still holds me back. Last winter, a part of me did want him to hurt as badly as I did. I don't feel that way anymore. I know that being unable to completely forgive hurts me just as much, when I feel desperate to not hurt over this anymore.
Hope I make sense here.
Things are going so well for us, it's like I'm afraid the bottom will drop out at any time. Another day goes by, another month, and things are still good. There's still that nagging feeling inside that at any time the rug will be pulled out from beneath me. I don't know how to make that feeling go away.
