Here we go again...

[someguy1233]

I've had a happy hour planned for tonight for weeks. It was a great gathering of people that worked at the company I've been at for years. It was fun to see some old faces and reconnect with people I haven't talk to in some time.

My wife started contacting me near our son's bedtime. She was trying to confirm if I was going to be able to pick him up from the grandparents' and put him to bed. In the end, she picked him up. But this really annoyed me because she knew I had this outting planned for weeks and wasn't sure when I would be home.

When I got home she was dressed in comfortable pajamas and packed to leave. She said her close friend is having relationship problems and needs her. She gave me a big hug and said, "I'm so f#cked up," followed by a quick kiss on the cheek. She's clearly still confused...

She asked me, "Do you want to talk tomorrow night or are we going to be pretend fake chipper the rest of our lives?" I responded with, "I don't know what's fake, but sure." She said ok and turned to leave.

I'm trying not to look into this too much. There's a part of me that's happy that she said she's "f#cked up." That means she has doubts. But I'm terrified of what she may say in a conversation. I'm sure she'll ask about why I've been "chipper." I plan to tell her, "ONE part of my life isn't good, but not all of it is bad. I choose to be happy." Is this ok to say?

I'm also not sure about talking to her tomorrow night... I have a work call at 9PM and need to have clarity and composure for the call. These after hours calls are rare, but I need to be on my A-game.