Stop this crazy train I want to get off!!!

[wishing, hoping]

Mediation today went surprisingly well. H looked tired and overwrought. He had some ideas to which I had doubts and was fully open that I was uncomfortable with them. Long story short he caved in to what I wanted and I compromised too. I think we have a good resolution and the mediator was impressed. It felt good coming to a conclusion we both we comfortable with and yet I didn't let him bulldoze me and yet I was respectful and considerate of what his wishes as well.

I think I had a moment of full detachment. I looked at him at mediation and thought I don't really know this man anymore. I can be civil with him and co-parent with him without being bossed and bullied. It felt like freedom and suddenly I felt like I would be okay. I will be fine.

Hope this lasts. But right now I am okay.