I think mirage posted something that I can related to on many many levels.
Jack is correct....my sitch DID work out. Why would I say such a thing? (I suspect that is your question)
I will try to summarize it in a few bullets.
1) I am free now.
2) I truly like me now..no, I love me now (I know sound self centered - it's not).
3) I am a better human being
4) A better father
5) A better friend
6) I am HAPPY
7) I understand me more so than at any other time in my life.
8) The weight of EVERYONE else EXPECTATIONS and the notion that I need to live my life the way EVERYONE else says I need to live is GONE i.e. total freedom.
9) I have learned responsibility
10) Oh...and my GF is totally HOT...LOL...
On a serious note, my M was not one of the ones that was saved. When I look back at it, I'm actually amazed that I was married for as long as I was. Honestly, my XW was one of the reasons it did last as long as it did. When you consider that nieither of us, knew who we were, niether had the right tools..
I am success because I just am. I survived, I learned, I lived...
Quick story...one that makes me cry everytime I think about it...
So about a month ago, I'm talking to my oldest son, who out of the blue looks at me and says...
"Dad...you know, I learned true forgivness from you and I have learned to be a better person"
My response..."thank you papi, but I and your mom deserve the credit".
His response...."Yeah maybe you are right dad...but YOU LIVE it - mom doesn't...she just does'nt know how to".
Sunny, the above convo will mean more to you...if you read my story... I almost gave up on my son. I thank god I didn't.
Be the best dad you can be Sunny. It will be one of the biggest joys you will ever have.
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
