Journalling I'm still not 100% well so this conf will go down as the first one I ever attended where I didn't touch alcohol & was first to go to bed (2145!). I'm still at hotel - everyone else has left - so currently sitting on my bed wondering if I dare risk dinner stomach cramp wise! Probably won't. Also when not well don't feel confident sitting at table for one in a busy hotel restaurant.
Conference good, included internal news that I just called my MD about that he didn't know. Must be worth a bonus.point!
As for H Someone attending conf knows my situation & was surprised yesterday to hear that I've been txtng H & thought I shld have stated a boundary like 'it's over, i'd prefer you don't contact me'. Now whilst I agree that IF it's over it's best to have NC, I don't think H & I have said it's over (I did say I couldn't do 'this' anymore beginning of Sept) nor do I think it's right to tell someone that by txt. I told colleague that until H & I talk face to face I'm keeping coms open & light.
So I've been 'leaning back' aka no initiating/overfunctioning since saying thx for txt yesterday morning w no expectations. And guess what just happened? H txt to ask how I was. AMAZING. Here's his txt How are you feeling Tumbling? x
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Hi H. It's nice to hear from you. I'm better but not perfect; currently sitting on hotel bed wondering if I dare risk dinner!x
I don't think he'll remember I'm away w work so hotel may intrigue him....
I don't want to ask how he is as I hate txt convos. It wld be so much easier to have a 5 min convo!
I've realised by leaning back I create space for him to do or not do & I don't get my panties in a bunch. Here's to more leaning back!
