Galbaby thanks that is my 180 not to be sexual and just be affectionate.
Another positive to journal yesterday. We slept in the same room, even though it was my turn inMBR. W ended sleeping with me mainly because s3 was crying his crib is in the MBR.
Some physical touch is definitely allowed during the nigh but there are limits. We started to cuddle and I could tell she wasn't ready for that, although she didnt push me back but i felt her being uneasy and I backed off.
I also need a lot of work on my 180 regarding not expecting ML from physical touch.
I was tossing and turning and couldn't sleep and I couldn't get my mind off ML. I know bad habit of mine. This is my 180 since W complain I pressure her a lot on sex. I realize I need more work on this when I couldn't get some sleep. I was also making negative environment by tossing and turning because I'm sure I'm causing my W to lose some sleep. This is not good and need to go back in separate sleeping arrangement until I'm ready.
So in summary, limited physical contact is allowed in my stitch as of Sunday. It is welcome by W but depending on the moment. She is not pushing me away, and I can tell she's trying not to hurt me.
I got to get to work now. Anyway, we'll see what brings tonight it's still my turn to be in MBR, I'm curious if she will join me again.
Newman
me40; W43 M18; T~20 D18; S13 & S3 bomb 5/9/11 EA busted 4/30/12; 9/4/12; 4/29/13; 6/10/13 same OM
Separated 4/1/14
"Even a flicker of light will shine through darkness-12/25/2012"....better days ahead.
