Happy Anniversary to me *sarcasm* today is one year since BD, well tonight will be, around 9pm, not a day I will ever forget, that's for sure. On the up side, I'm not the person I was back then, I'm new and improved, and still a work in progress. In light of the making it one year with my MLCer I wanted to take a moment and thank you all for your support, encouragement, and smacks in the head when needed, because I doubt I could have made it this far with out all of your support. grin I really do appreciate what you all have to share, I think you are all wonderful people, thank you.


Thanks Kimmerz! I'll continue to be on the lookout for missing stuff... so far he just randomly moves things. lol Yeah, H left strange random stuff in 2 dresser drawers last year when he moved all his stuff out of our room.

wishing, hoping~Strange the things they keep. So far H has kept the anniversary card I gave him. But maybe he forgot he put it on the shelf, it's slide so far back.

Snodderly~Great analogy with the Cabin in the Woods movie, sooo true!! Your explanation of the gift thing makes perfect sense too. Also reminded me of one of the "talks" we had months ago when he asked why I would want to be in a relationship with someone who has hurt so many people, not feelling very worthy I guess, it's all so sad.

Eric~Thank You! I really appreciate your post. No worries, expectations low to zero, hope though is still there, although runs lower some days.... My counselor once told me I almost don't like the good interactions because I know the bad is coming..... he's right, I know it won't last, but I've gotten better at appreciating it for what it is, enjoying the moment and not giving into worry or fear all the time.

Updates~Nothing new to really report, I haven't seen H really since Monday. He stayed out late Tuesday evening 11, strange for Mr. goes to bed around the time a toddler would! LOL He didn't go to the gym yesterday in the morning (back to it this morning though), but I left before he was out of the shower, I left a note on the fridge telling him he could help himself to the leftover crock pot chicken and stuffing I had made the night before (it's freaking delicious!), and the awesome peanut butter/ chocolate mousse pie I made.

When I got home last night (a bit before 9), H was in bed, and I noticed he actually ate some of the chicken, but no pie, I was surprised since he seems to be cycling back into me being the enemy, thought he would have just eaten cereal like he does sometimes (I guess to prove a point, who knows, I'm glad he ate the leftovers though because there is so much and I hate to waste food.

Anyway, I'm just going to continue to keep myself busy, also been really busy with work too, less time to think is good sometimes. smile Have a fabulous day all!