Thanks Tori! It was more the snowball effect. I simply had, had enough of life yesterday. Sounds dumb. Today was much better. He called several times on the premise of the kids. Maybe that is what he wanted. I don't know. He told me his plans for the evening. That sort of thing. Just his usual mixed up mess. I have detached a considerable amount. I have moments of anxiety where he is concerned but the crying stage has passed for our M. It is more the state of everything. I did awful, dreadful on a test in class the other day. Frankly, the way class is structured and the point scale it may have literally put 3 years of nursing school in the toilet. Not sure yet what the outcome will be. Now there is thinking something somewhere was messed up because not one single person passed the test. So who knows what will happen with that. It was just a major blow. I was feeling like well here is the thing that has stolen much of my energy and taken attention from my family and now it is all destroyed and gone too. Just felt overwhelming. Not so much now. I have more perspective. I guess sometimes God has no other option but to smack you upside the head if you miss the subtle hints. I think that might be where I'm at right now. I just got smacked. :-)
