Thank you so much for the list AS. It helps a lot that I'm actually taking many off the list to try!! Thanks for pointing this out. I guess I was trying to say that after my experience with partying much, I wouldn't put it as my priority as to GAL, especially now. I think my mind keeps thinking about it is because I'm assuming my H is partying much right now. But yeah, I need to be in control of my own life, I'll try to stop wondering if he's doing this or that...hard tho.... And again thanks for pointing out the GAL thing. I feel like you reassured me how this is gonna help me and it's definitely a big help already. Thank you!! I really do not have much PMA right now and I realized that I really really need it! So I just drew something and I felt good
About 180... I'm a bit inconsistent on it before. Now, H shut off all the contact with me....I'm not reaching out for him now though, I'm not sure if it's my 180.... But right now, i really don't even know what I could do or say to show him I'm a better person/trying to be a better person.... Any idea on this situation?
And yeah, I'm more determined to keep my changes now, it's good for me, and for my marriage, and I really do not want to mess it up again, I haven't been this determined for awhile....a long while i guess....I feel like this is like zigzag, I know I'll feel weak again sometime but I'll make sure that I check in here to get more courage and not mess it up... Again, thanks!!
