best and worse thing to ever go through

[eyesopen]

So there has been no talk of D in about a week, which is good since there was talk of it for the three days prior to that.

Right now everything between w and I is friendly, and amicable. I am not sure what is going on with OM, or if he even is a OM. It is entirely possible that they are just friends. Either way I have done well to not let it bother me.

There is a Retrouvaille seminar very close to us in about a month. I am wondering if I should see if she would be willing to go? Or do I wait to see more signs other than just being friendly.

I have also been thinking about my 180's. Like I have said before the biggest complaint my W had was that I would make her feel guilty when she would leave the house. In my mind I thought that if we had free time we should spend it as a family. Since this has happened I do see the importance of GAL, for myself and for my wife. So I have been offering to take the kids on nights that she doesn't have to work so that she can get out. The thing about doing this is that it kind of goes against tough love. She chose to leave, so if that means rarely getting a night to herself, too bad. I have also been trying to speak her LL when she seems receptive. It is WOA. Doing this sometimes feels like persuit, but I know that I need to learn to speak this way for everyone that I hold close. It seems that in most of the other sitches I read, after the bomb drop there were things that were said to the LBS, that pretty much spelled out the 180's. So I know that Sandi is right when she said it is a attraction thing. I am having a difficult time figureing out how to do 180's, be mysterious, and touch her heart all at the same time.

It takes all my strength and self-confidence to continue to love her and honor my vows. Yet do my 180's come off as weak and needy?