I love that analogy by Cadet. I am moving on with my life but not seeking to move on with any R. I still feel married.
I think that in the past I have glossed over things W has done during the break-up so that I could avoid feeling the pain, the depth of the rejection and facing how how difficult it would be to R. There have been layers of anger... and I feel as if I made a big step yesterday in addressing them more openly and honestly.
I get fearful that in addressing the anger that I will take a victim role.. but I did not feel that yesterday. I actually felt empowered as if I was standing up for myself and my letter reflected that, I believe.
As for my current state of dimness :), it just felt like what I needed right now. I was too angry to see her this week. I am not sure if I will feel differently the next time I have an opportunity.
Me(f): 51 W: 41 DP:8 M:3 T:10 "W not happy" 7/11 D final: 8/13
