I am right there with you. I have messed up too many times myself. My W attended a fall festival (we are S, and I have been served D papers), and I blew it afterwards. I said my goodbyes and then asked for her to reconsider counceling. She told me to stop pushing, she has nothing left to give, and that she regrets coming.
BD: 8/20/2012 W Files: 8/23/2012 S: 8/25/2012 (I moved out) D Final: 3/5/2013