ML again sat. morning. Some closeness time too. It was ok but not feeling the big bang explosion of love i've been hoping for. Now i'm feeling claustraphobic and need some space. Don't know what i'm going through right now, depression seems to have kicked back in. Maybe i was hoping for instant solution to my problems, but now i'm thinking that I'm fooling myself and making it longer and more painful on both of us to even try.
