I finished reading and writing here on the boards last night and was about to shut down and head to 'my bedroom', the spare bedroom where i now sleep when i'm staying at the house. W comes out of the bedroom crying. Held her for a long time and when she calmed down she told me that she had just realized how lonely she would be without me. Having no friends and family to count on, i was all she had. She said that pain of loneliness was greater than the physical pain of ML so she was willing to give it a try. We did ML. Having pretty much trained myself through 10+ years of SSM to not be interested in her, as well as 5 months of separation preparing me to move on, I really wasn't into it very much. Falling asleep in each others arms after, i still don't feel any change in my empty love bank. Maybe it will take time. We'll see if this is a one time occurance or if she really wants to try. She did finally say that she will talk to the doctor about her Pill prescription and i'm trying to get her to talk to the doctor about the pain as well. Not sure what i want to happen, this change was what i thought i was looking for but i'm not excited about it at all.
